psychedelic blue moon.

Every 2-3 years, there is an extra full moon in a month. Today, the last day of 2009- there is a beautiful BLUE moon out.

indifferency.

i'm just not sure.
of much lately.
i'm happy, but indifferent.
i'm in love, but scared.
i'm warm, but cold.
i'm tired, but awake.

why isn't anything ever good enough. why is there always a reason to complain. why is the world just mediocre. why can't the world ever get better. we try to become the people we want to be. but it's hard. its so easy to screw up, do the wrong thing.

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wake up. finally. and realize that tomorrow may never come. the world truly IS beautiful. the air is the freshest thing. the ocean alone is one of the greatest things ever made. how can one sit and feel bad about something when there is so much beauty surrounding us. please people, dont make that mistake.

dragonfly.

Haven't posted a blog in quite some time. Thought now is the time to do so. Things have changed in the past year. Changes for the better.

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

Is it real or is it fake?

My head hurts from her yelling.
My heart melts from all the lies.
My lungs kill from the nicotine.
But it helps with the cries.
The drinking turned her into a beauty queen.
From what she believes is true.
I'm sick of it.
I've been sick of it for some time.
But all we do it sweep it under.
And smile to our friends on Sunday morning.
It hurts like the rain and thunder.

Everyday is a day in it self.
The smiles she cakes on.
Is it real or is it fake?